November Resolution...

SO my friend pointed out to me that its been a while since I blogged about anything... So I figured, hey... I'm not sleeping, so why not!? So here it goes...

First of all, let me just point out that there will probably be a lot of middle of the night blogs coming from me seeing as my insomnia missed me and has come back to hang out for a bit. I should really write down what I do to get tired and to go to sleep when I am able to, because then, when its 2:00 am and I'm sitting in my room, with the lights out, listening to some Jonathan Clay, just really wishing I would be able to fall asleep, I can turn to that list of stuff to do, read it and HEY! fall asleep... What a concept, sleep... My step dad always says "you sleep enough when your dead" well, I might die if I don't get more than 4 hours of sleep at night, just wish my body and mind would come to realize this! 

It really does suck, all you want to do is sleep, and you lie down in bed, get comfy, then you either a) can't calm your mind enough to fall asleep or b) you just can't lie still... your legs keep wanting to run a marathon and your body suddenly gets ADHD and decides that it is only going to be comfy in a certain position for 2 minutes before a pain hits somewhere or you get a twitch or an itch and you can't get comfy again...

YAY INSOMNIA!!!! I really wanted you to come back, I missed you, I really did :-( *kidding*

Second of all: I've decided that I'm gonna put myself to the test this month (and maybe for a while longer). I just finished quite the weekend of events. Went out and drank Saturday night at a house party, then had a couple beers while watching the football game (GO RIDERS) on Sunday, then staff party on Monday which meant more drinking... SOOOO, since this seems like enough drinking for the next month for me, I've decided to not go out at all this month! I am still allowing myself to have a glass of wine or a beer (singular) if I'm ever out for supper, or a rum and ginger with my roommate on a Friday or Saturday night IN... but no more drinking after work, no more going out on weekends and spending money I don't have to spend and DEFINITELY no more than 2 drinks per week!!!!!!! 

Now you may think that this is rediculous, I mean, it can't be that hard to not drink right? WRONG! And no, I do not have a drinking problem,... Its just, when you work in the serving industry and all people do is drink and go out and are always inviting you... it is hard! Especially when all you want to do is make them like you, and make them think your not a loser... so you go out with them. Well I've decided I have my girlfriends, I don't need people who don't like me for who I am, and this is who I am!!!!

I am a proud loser

I like curling into a ball and reading a book for hours on end

I like cooking

I like dancing around to goofy music (sober)

I like just hanging out with girlfriends

I LOVE jeans

I LOVE sports... I'm a football/hockey girl

I hate gossip

I hate drama

I really hate clubs

I hate putting effort into how I look

I hate guys hitting on me all the time (ew)

I hate loud horrible music pounding in my ears

I hate chicks dressing like sluts and giving me weird looks cause i'm usually in jeans

And the list kinda goes on and on... So ya, moral of this story is, I'm done drinking... I usually regret drinking, I usually regret things I say and do when I drink, and I just really want to prove to myself I can do it! But not just that, how much money will I save if I don't drink?! Like really, soooo much money! And who needs alcohol when you're honestly happy...

Which is another point, I am happy... Its November and I'm wearing jeans and tee's to work, only putting my sweater on for the wander home after work (at night)... The sun has been shining lately, and I have my bestest friend in the whole wide world living close(ish) to me again... I don't need a guy in my life; tho, I'm not going to complain if that perfect guy happens to show up, you know, anytime now... like... now? or... not? :( hahaha... But seriously, I am happy... Sure, I have days (like now) where I feel like a fat, ugly cow, but hey... thats what sweat pants are for right girls? And I have days (like now) where I really, REALLY miss my Mom and sister and want to just have them both with me cuddling in bed like we used to do every weekend... But, I'm not sick, I'm not dying, I have a job, I have enough money to get by, so not much to complain about... 

Anyways, seems like Insomnia has taken a break and I must take advantage of this space I have away from it and try and sneak in some z's... So, until next time (which won't be this long... promise) I say good night, sweet dreams, and don't let the bed bugs bite... But if they do, take your shoe, and beat them til their black and blue :-D - thats what my Nana always says <3 Love her...

CIAO! xoxo