Hurt

So I'm sitting at home, all by myself, just hanging out... and I can't get this guy out of my head... I watch a movie, watch TV, read a book, and I just want to have this guy... I think its the whole "I want what I can't have" thing... But ya, its driving me insane! Not only that but I just got another bunch of texts from his "girlfriend" telling me how she was gonna go hook up with him and tell me all this shit... I can't believe this, I CAN NOT like someone I've never even met!!! But I need to get over him, I need to get him out of my head... Why can't I get over him... Why am I so head over heels for this jerk!? Like what the hell... Not only that, but why do I seem to attract the biggest ass holes... Why do guys cheat too? I wish I had never heard of him, wish I had never texted him, wish he would just disappear from my life... I want to text this chick back and be like "stop fucking texting me, I don't care" but that would just show I do care... 

I don't know what to do... I want him :( I want to be with him :( I want to at least know that I wasn't wrong about him being a sweetheart... I want to know he wasn't just playing me... I feel like I just got dumped by a guy I've never met, let alone been with... Why do I do this? I wish I could just erase this whole thing from my mind :(